National Stop Bullying Day | My Story

It’s National Stop Bullying Day and this is my story… I don’t share my story very often because it’s not an easy one to tell. BUT if it can help even one person it’s worth it.

I grew up in what seemed like a fairly normal Christian family. We went to church every Sunday. We put smiles on our faces. The person who liked to call himself my dad could quote scriptures all day and tell what every scholar said on each subject. He would cry at all the appropriate times. He looked every bit like a saint.

Then we’d go home to our personal hell and he showed himself as the demon he really is. He abused me, my siblings and my mother on a constant basis. Religious abuse, physical abuse, emotional abuse and on through the list. He is a psychopathic narcissist so we were manipulated to the point that we no longer knew what was what.

As most toxic people do, he wouldn’t allow us to associate with anyone who wasn’t also toxic. Gotta keep us in line. This meant I had abuse not only in my home but from my “friends” as well. It’s impossible for you to know the personal hell this really is unless you have been through it. I didn’t know what was wrong. I didn’t know what was normal. I only knew I was trying my best to be a good girl and keep everyone happy. I was always reaching for something I couldn’t find.

God is good and in time we were able to break away from this horrible bully and the toxic “friends” as well. But the pain didn’t stop there. My family and I have still suffered because of his wickedness. We were forced out of our home and lived in a travel trailer. We lived on one meal a day for months because of what this person did to us financially. I have lain in bed at night pleading with God that my family and I would live until morning. I haveplead with God to wake me if I needed to fight for my life. We’ve all been diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) and have to fight that battle, Every. Single. Day. All because the person who should have loved us decided to abuse us instead.

There are nights I still cry myself to sleep. There are still days I feel like a broken little girl. I spend my days pleading for Jesus to heal me. There are days I still ache because I just wanted a daddy who loves me. I don’t know why he would want to hurt me instead.

Why am I telling you this?

Because it’s my story and it’s one God has told me to share. It’s the whole reason I became a coach. I don’t want anyone to have to go through the pain my family and I have.

Today is National Stop Bullies Day. Bullying doesn’t only happen on the playground. Many hearts are breaking due to the bullies in their own homes. For some, it’s their spouse for others a parent or sibling. So many times my family tried to reach out for help from others! Our hearts aching! They turned deaf ears banishing us further into our private hell.

When someone reaches out to you for help PLEASE listen to them! Even just a shoulder to lean on will mean more to them than you will ever know.

Bullies are real. Toxic people are very present in today’s world. It’s vital that we educate ourselves so we know how to spot them and guard against them. If you haven’t seen my videos on toxic people I ask you to give them a watch. You never know who you might be saving. A friend, a family member or maybe even you.